I HATE THE SNOW. OFFICIALLY. MAKE IT GO AWAY. BE DONE. I WANT SUMMER.
And an update on the new baby....looking back I never officially announced that we had baby #4 on the way. I just put the countdown widget on the side of my blog and that was it. So, baby #4 is on the way! I feel like for journaling purposes I need to say what a long awaited pregnancy it was and that had me completely baffled and frustrated as to why it was taking so long. With every person that would get pregnant I would get more and more frustrated that it wasn't happening for me. I have tiny understanding of what women go through that want babies and are disappointed month after month. I am due July 2, but saying the end of June because (A) it sounds sooner than saying I'm due in July and (B) I do not expect to go all the way to July. Once the blasted snow disappears, I am going to put on my walking shoes and be off several times a day and try to will this baby to come early. (I didn't say I loved being pregnant).
So that is the reason for the lack of posts, I was crazy sick and puking 24 hours a day in the beginning and cursing myself for wanting it so badly and now I just feel completely exhausted constantly. I would sleep all day if someone would take over everything else in my life.
I am super excited to have another baby in our house. I tried to tell myself after Eliana that we were done, but deep down I knew we weren't. Everytime I put something away that she had grown out of I would fight off major emotions. Or we would all be sitting in the living room and I would look around and think that someone was missing only to realize that we were all there. Then I went to a Stake Relief Society Saturday where they had several different workshops. I went to one on families and I don't remember anything that the speaker said, I just read this sign that she had sitting there that had their last name and then under it it said, "All Present and Accounted For" and I completely lost it. It was as if someone had taken a bull horn and put it to my ear and said, "You're not all here dummy!" I went home in tears to try to tell Sam about what I had felt. I couldn't even get it out I was crying so hard. We both ended up laughing hysterically at my overwhelming emotions which are totally not me. He, of course, was completely on board. He had been telling me for a couple months to ask my cardiologist if it would be okay. So with permission from both doctors, here we are. I am on my medication and everything is going great. I am feeling baby move more and more every day. We once again are not finding out what this baby is. Sam and I both agreed as soon as we found out that we were expecting that it was way more fun not knowing, after not knowing what Eliana was. I have had people tell me I am rediculous and that it isn't a big deal either way, but until you do it I don't think you can have an opinion. And maybe it won't be as big a deal for someone else as it was for us, but we both agreed that it was an amazing experience. So for now it is just baby...we have ideas for names...Gavin, for sure if it is a boy but all girl names are up in the air.
Ellie is just positive it is going to be a girl. Okay she is adament it is going to be a girl so I hope that if it's not we don't have to protect the poor kids life. I hope that when it gets here, whatever it is, she will just love it cuz it's a baby. Daxton would like a brother, he has made that clear, but is so sweet to say that it will be okay if Heavenly Father sends another girl. He and Dad will be okay being the only boys. Kamryn is so analytical that she would like it to be a boy so that there are 3 girls and 3 boys in our family. But if it is a girl that will be okay too. It has been interesting being pregnant with older kids. I guess Daxton doesn't really seem to care much about things, but Kamryn and I have already had some interesting conversations. She wants to know just about everything. She hasn't asked how babies get in there, thank the dear heavens, I am not ready for that one, but she has asked about where the baby comes out so I had to explain that one. She was appalled and not ever going to have children. Although, she has told me that she would like to be in the delivery room which is not going to happen. She is very concerned about the umbillical cord and how gross it is and that it looks like it does and why the baby's belly button looks the way it does after they cut it (she saw a picture of a newborn in one of the magazines they sent home from the dr.) She is so full of questions on a daily basis that it has been an interesting journey for the both of us. I am excited for the road ahead. I am excited to have 4 kids and hope to feel that our family is complete!
And an update on the new baby....looking back I never officially announced that we had baby #4 on the way. I just put the countdown widget on the side of my blog and that was it. So, baby #4 is on the way! I feel like for journaling purposes I need to say what a long awaited pregnancy it was and that had me completely baffled and frustrated as to why it was taking so long. With every person that would get pregnant I would get more and more frustrated that it wasn't happening for me. I have tiny understanding of what women go through that want babies and are disappointed month after month. I am due July 2, but saying the end of June because (A) it sounds sooner than saying I'm due in July and (B) I do not expect to go all the way to July. Once the blasted snow disappears, I am going to put on my walking shoes and be off several times a day and try to will this baby to come early. (I didn't say I loved being pregnant).
So that is the reason for the lack of posts, I was crazy sick and puking 24 hours a day in the beginning and cursing myself for wanting it so badly and now I just feel completely exhausted constantly. I would sleep all day if someone would take over everything else in my life.
I am super excited to have another baby in our house. I tried to tell myself after Eliana that we were done, but deep down I knew we weren't. Everytime I put something away that she had grown out of I would fight off major emotions. Or we would all be sitting in the living room and I would look around and think that someone was missing only to realize that we were all there. Then I went to a Stake Relief Society Saturday where they had several different workshops. I went to one on families and I don't remember anything that the speaker said, I just read this sign that she had sitting there that had their last name and then under it it said, "All Present and Accounted For" and I completely lost it. It was as if someone had taken a bull horn and put it to my ear and said, "You're not all here dummy!" I went home in tears to try to tell Sam about what I had felt. I couldn't even get it out I was crying so hard. We both ended up laughing hysterically at my overwhelming emotions which are totally not me. He, of course, was completely on board. He had been telling me for a couple months to ask my cardiologist if it would be okay. So with permission from both doctors, here we are. I am on my medication and everything is going great. I am feeling baby move more and more every day. We once again are not finding out what this baby is. Sam and I both agreed as soon as we found out that we were expecting that it was way more fun not knowing, after not knowing what Eliana was. I have had people tell me I am rediculous and that it isn't a big deal either way, but until you do it I don't think you can have an opinion. And maybe it won't be as big a deal for someone else as it was for us, but we both agreed that it was an amazing experience. So for now it is just baby...we have ideas for names...Gavin, for sure if it is a boy but all girl names are up in the air.
Ellie is just positive it is going to be a girl. Okay she is adament it is going to be a girl so I hope that if it's not we don't have to protect the poor kids life. I hope that when it gets here, whatever it is, she will just love it cuz it's a baby. Daxton would like a brother, he has made that clear, but is so sweet to say that it will be okay if Heavenly Father sends another girl. He and Dad will be okay being the only boys. Kamryn is so analytical that she would like it to be a boy so that there are 3 girls and 3 boys in our family. But if it is a girl that will be okay too. It has been interesting being pregnant with older kids. I guess Daxton doesn't really seem to care much about things, but Kamryn and I have already had some interesting conversations. She wants to know just about everything. She hasn't asked how babies get in there, thank the dear heavens, I am not ready for that one, but she has asked about where the baby comes out so I had to explain that one. She was appalled and not ever going to have children. Although, she has told me that she would like to be in the delivery room which is not going to happen. She is very concerned about the umbillical cord and how gross it is and that it looks like it does and why the baby's belly button looks the way it does after they cut it (she saw a picture of a newborn in one of the magazines they sent home from the dr.) She is so full of questions on a daily basis that it has been an interesting journey for the both of us. I am excited for the road ahead. I am excited to have 4 kids and hope to feel that our family is complete!
This is the best view of the face we got. The little stinker wouldn't turn any more than this.
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Congrats to you... We were wondering when you were going to announce the surprise. It is a handful having four but it is so worth it. good luck to you and your fam!
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