Finally! I know...

After a Hiatus from the blogging world, I am back (to stifle my sis-ta and my mother. )

My baby is turning ONE on Friday...so crazy!

I'm kind of having a hard time with it. I'm kind of an emotional basket case already.

At this time last year I was walking my kids to and from school, walking MILES at night with the ladies in my ward, complaining about everything and doing everything possible to get that baby OUT!

Every conversation revolved on what if...

What if I go into labor in the middle of the night?

What if there's something wrong they didn't see on the ultrasound?

What if it weighs 10 pounds?

What if it's a boy?

What if it's another GIRL!?

Well, it was a GIRL and she was perfect and amazing in every way possible.

It's amazing to me that in one year they grow so fast...They go from this:

To this:

Holy Cow I love that face! She is so sweet and so amazing. So silly and so crazy. So loud yet so precious. She is growing so fast I just want to slow her down. Since she's my last I want to put her in a box and keep her little. I used to make fun of mom for crying over everything Rhett did...but as hard as it is to admit, I now understand. Just thinking that this is the last first birthday I will plan for my own child makes me sad. I cry when I think it will be the last child I will nurse and feel that incredible close bond that we have. I may say I want her to grow hair, but really I LOVE that she is bald - it makes her seem younger. I want to keep her little for as long as possible. Every day I thank my Heavenly Father I have been blessed to be a mother and especially a mother of four. So many don't get the opportunity. I am so grateful for prayer and for answers to prayers...every day when I look at that face, I know that my Heavenly Father loves me and wants me to be happy! She has been a huge testimony builder for me.

I guess we'll keep her!

*Stay tuned for more birthday pictures* sorry mom, don't have time to upload any more